"Concerning this salvation, prophets who prophesied about the grace that was to be yours searched and investigated it,...It was revealed to them that they were serving not themselves but you with regard to the things that have now been announced to you by those who preached the good news to you [through] the holy Spirit sent from heaven, things into which angels longed to look". (1 Peter; 10, 12)
So, I have a confession to make, and the confession is that I have failed. Now your probably thinking something along the lines of "I know your haven't exactly posted on a weekly bases, but dude your being too hard on yourself, it's just a blog post after all". Here me out though. I have failed this mission before I even started. You see, I started writing this series with the assumption that I could just follow a simple apologetics course, get all my questions answered, and post about my experiences. Can I just say, I have never been more wrong about something than I was with myself regarding this 'seeking of truth'. Human curiosity and the desire for truth, not to mention the Holy Spirit, most definitely cannot simply be forced to fit a certain predesigned mold and expect to be satisfied, nor reach it's fullest potential. Searching for truth comes with taking risks, and making ourselves a little uncomfortable, we can't always 'play it safe'. Not to mention, being Catholic is not about sitting at home, clean, tidy, neat, always comfortable and always acting like we have 'everything all together'. No, being a Catholic means to get your hands dirty, to be sweaty, to take risks and ask questions. To be Catholic is to live an adventure guided by the Holy Spirit, not just by human literature or our own desires.
From here on out, I can not promise I will post a lengthy update for this blog series every single week. Nor can I even promise that all of my posts will be stellar defenses of the faith, well reasoned treastises on dogma, or breath taking philosophical arguments defending our faith . Heck, I can't even promise my grammar will be spot on in all of my blog posts (have you seen some of my posts lately?). I simply am a human being, a Catholic, in search for truth, and who knows where that search will take me? All I know is that it will be an adventure, and I promise to bring you along for the ride. They may not always be breathtakingly beautiful, but I will record the thoughts, the experiences, and feelings I encounter. I will go bearing prudence, wherever I feel called to go; lifting every rock and lookin in every nook and cranny to satisfy this growing hunger for answers and ultimately the truth. I finally understand that if the Catholic faith is the true faith it must be understood that she has the answers for the questions that we seek; that is to say reasons to back up the beliefs that she holds. The Niecene or Apostle's Creeds are not simple words to be uttered at random, they are meant to be a profession of faith to live by (a.k.a you are saying that you personally believe these things and desire to live your life according to them).
At some point in our lives we must question whether you can really in good conscience profess a creed you haven't given more than a school lesson's worth of attention to, if that much at all. I desire to find the truth, and sometimes one can't just play everything safe; things must be challenged for you to truly appreciate them. We owe it to ourselves to search for truth and not be complacent with our thirst for answers. Keep me accountable to this, I pray you do. In our hearts we know we'll never be satisfied not knowing the truth for why we exist or how we are called to live our life. Keep yourselves accountable, ask questions if you have them and do not be afraid. The best thing you can do for yourself is to be honest with yourself. Go get dirty with your faith. Put yourself under a little pressure and wrestle with the faith, as Jacob did with an Angel of God, in the book of Genesis. Sweat a little, cry a little, but most importantly, as Christ says, "come and follow me"and let us unhinderedly find the spirit of truth together no matter the price. Here, I truly begin this quest for truth, and as we were taught to say at the Steubenville East Conference this past weekend, "Nunc Coepi". "Now, I Begin".
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